The place I'd give anything for the world that was the only one I ever knew. From the days of my youth I had run and laughed and seen the sunshine from his world. This place I can not go back too.
It hurts me deeply but I know I am blessed to have ever been to this place to share this place w someone, someone I love. I know now that this place, this love, this sacrifice, this pain, this comfort, this oneness was all part of the journey that I am on w the Lord.
Although my relationship w my husband was not perfect, it was far from perfect actually. It was still part of a perfect plan. The one God has included me in. I know we didn't have much if anything financialy, no assets, no great Job, no awards, no great recognitions. But I felt I had so much more.
Now just knowing that I had someone out there to love that loved me back. Someone I could hug that wanted me to hug them. Someone to kiss, to cuddle next to, strong arms that would wrap around me and make me feel like there was nothing else I needed. I realize how blessed I was. I am still blessed but this that is something I've known all my life is now just a memory. I pray as God bottles each of our tears that he somehow preserves the memories. One day I want to have this feeling again. One day I want to return to the land that I loved and I know I will. However I'm sure there will be many more magnificent lands as God will make us one with him. But I will never forget the journey and the love we shared. I can truly say before we were married God knew we would be one. He knew I guess when he would take you and he allowed me to grow up with you in a special land of love. I count it a blessing to know you Russell Walls to really know you. To really love you and to know no other.
One day God will allow us to enter our land again. I love you❤️
